Epiphany!!!
So. I've come to realize why I'm so upset about the recent Bob-failure. It's because I put everything I had into it [us]. And I've found that I do that with a lot of things in my life.
I do it with my schoolwork, my family and friends, my work, my home, my writing, how I think and feel...everything. I put every bit of me into everything that I do. So that's why it hurts so much when things fall apart, when I don't get the grades I expected, when there are problems or someone lets me down, when someone gets promoted or makes more than me, or when more people aren't appreciative of what I've created, and I am always trying to figure out why I feel what I feel.
Well all that's going to change!
I am tired of putting so much in to everything that I touch and barely getting anything to show for it! From now on I'm going to half-ass everything and not give a FUCK!
See this? This is me not giving A FUCK! Not one. I even threw some whore-red lipstick on because that's just how much I wasn't giving as far as fucks were concerned.
If I keep this up [caring that is] this world will bleed me dry. I just need to shrug my shoulder a lot and throw my hands up in the air and pay no mind if I happen to throw the baby out with the bath-water. right?
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