Fight Club and Dating

The First Rule of Dating is....

I've always had this rule with dating that if things got a little tough or if I asked a guy for some space and he was a dick about it or out-right bailed, then it was over (and for the bailed thing, it would not be forgiven if/when he wanted another chance).

While reading Fight Club I realized they kinda did the same thing, but they weren't even let IN until they passed this test, "If the applicant then waits for three days without food, shelter, or encouragement he may then enter and begin his training. ..."

Every time things get tough and the guy isn't getting the reassurance he needs or I ask to slow things down or take a break or something, he bails. This shows me who the person is faster than waiting 6 months for something like this to happen. I feel like I'm never good enough for guys to tough through it, ever. -If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best.

No one fights for me, plain and simple. No one says, "Listen, you're really busy and clearly frustrated, I'm going to let you get caught up on things and sort stuff out and once you're done with all of that I will be here." No one goes, "I know things are crazy with us right now, but we are going to get through it and find a way because you are that important to me that I don't want to lose you." 

Just like the guys who are too afraid to even tell a girl they like 'em. If you're too afraid to tell a girl you LIKE her, what else are you afraid to do? I totally asked a manager of a restaurant if he had a girlfriend and he told me he was engaged. Boy was I red in the face, but it made his night and I will never have to wonder "what if??"

My friend is GORGEOUS and she had a guy tell her she was "too short to ride the ride" or something like that. Oh freaking well. Pretty girls get dumped too. Nice girls get taken advantage of. And you know what, sometimes things work out. Just because 20 girls said no doesn't mean that the next one will. 

Sometimes people just need to know that they're not expendable, especially people like me who whenever I've trusted a guy and he's told me he's not going anywhere -he leaves! Him, you think, that MAYBE I need proof that you're going to stay and when it isn't sunshine and rainbow you're not going to leave me in the cold and rain?